It's been almost a year since my Divorce. October 27th marks the day of a new life for me and my son. I look back on all of it and have so many mixed emotions. Part of me misses that life, but a greater part of me feels relief. I did what anyone does when they start over. Moved, got a job, set up child care, ect. For a long time afterwards though, I thoroughly enjoyed not having to share my life with anyone but my son. Now, that's changed. Now I'm battling this loneliness that I've never quite felt before. Maybe I'm being impatient. Who knows? It's been a little over a year and a half since I've been with anyone. Is that weird?

no hun thats not wierd at all. Very common in fact. Divorce is difficult. A death of sorts. And there is a grief process. Know there are lots of us out here that have experienced the same emotions & much love & hugs to you & yours :)

When a relationship is all said and done and the hurt starts to heal its hard not see the good in it ...u should be proud of urself that uve made it through and know that ur healing :-)

I went thru the same thing after my divorce. It gets better. I find myself now being satisfied being single. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to be with that special someone....just at a point in my life tho, that I won't settle for anything but the RIGHT one.

Thank you for your wise and supportive words y'all. That makes me very happy. :) It's never easy starting over, especially starting over emotionally. It's like you have to put yourself in a completely different state of mind and for me it was kind of a shock to the system. I actually have a plan for next month. It will sound kinda creepy lol. I'm going to hold my own funeral. Not a real one, mind you. Lol! I'm going to write down everything that has hurt me in my life so far, put it in an urn, and burn it. It will signify a new life and new beginnings. :)

@Marlee81: thats a great plan. Just be ready to emotionally let go of it too :)

@clover04: Absolutely, that's the plan. :)

@Marlee81: wow! that's an amazing idea! i would never think of doing something like that, thats really cool :)

im getting disgusted with having my feelings hurt and my heart broke.

I feel there. It sucks having to start over emotionally. Then again, most of us don't take the time to really start over and just jump into things again. Comfort zones are hard to break.