As a man, how did you react/deal when your father died?


Source.

Damn Sparky. Right in the feels. I went to his service early. I hadn't seen him in over a year and I wanted a moment. I looked at him and I bawled. I didn't mourn the man. With the exception of a few fond memories in life he was a miserable ba$****. I mourned the loss of the father he never trully was. I have my whole life dealt with wondering if he ever loved me at all and I never got a chance to find out.

I am not a man, but i lost my father in 2004, hardest thing I've ever been through. He fought long and hard, i still blame myself for backing away his last few months, he fought so long for me, so when he stopped i thought he must of gave up on me and died. I did everything i could. I'll never get that time back to visit for 5 more minutes like he wanted.

Had to handle a lot of VA and SS stuff between the actual passing and the funeral. Also, taking care of my mom.
Didn't grieve till the night after the service. Got a bottle of good stuff, drank, and cried.

Aint lost my dad yet. but i know with my papa who raised me they said that bein a pallbearer is a honor it was hardest thing I've ever done