I try always have some humor on here, leaving my personal life outside of the forums..Im a square peg in a round hole. I have had every addiction under the Sun, I have fought these addictions in silence throughout my life.. Friends, well people i thought were friends, jumped on the bandwagon when i was at my all time low. These were people I grew up with.. Bottom line, I trust nobody anymore!! The final nail in that coffin was my ex, who abused my goodness on a massive scale! A Woman who said she Loved me, But broke my Heart like no other Woman! I loved her, With every ounce of my being!! Im so ****ed up at the moment!

@OhMan: i wish you so much peace..

I see nice people on here, But im not a stupid man, Im sure there is alot of backroom talking that goes on among the regulars, I think we call it the same thing in Ireland, Gossip! Im not here for gossip, Im here to try meet some good ol fasioned Loyal Friends! I'm ol school in that regard. Anyway, any help or advice is appreciated.

People gonna talk can't do nothin bout that be yourself and let them eat a bowl of d*cks

Me too lace, Me too!! Thanks! I'd ****in end it all only its against my faith! Just dont see any future here anymore. Wow, am i being open or what lol sorry people, truzt me, I'd be the first to say, Cop On, if i read such a thread. Guess we never know till we're faced with our own dilemas! And actually face them. Im a good Man, with a lifetime of ****!

@OhMan: Hey we dont talk much but u can always inbox me. Im a good listener if u just wanna rant, i will help if i can

But you see Aldo, Im a gentle, soft Man, always have been! Traced my birthmother all my life, when iu finally found where she was, I discovered she'd died the year pervious, age 54, God Be Good To Her! What i was told about her, She had a Heart as big as a whale, But i also learned, she was abused by everyone..Never thoiught i'd put this oin a chat site. But im out of it here! Pain is unbearible.. Sorry people, Im just so alone & hurting Soooo Much.. Having a vunerible moment.

@OhMan: sorry to hear that rest her soul

Wow, cont belieeblve i posted all that, Yeah thanks Aldo, I appreciate it Man.. Ah f.Ωck it! Just gets to a time in life whem ya thinkl? Whats the point? Different day, kinda thing.

@ohman, buddy, I've been through the same experiences many times. I had to drop all my friends once because they were taking the pee out of my tourettes, it's never nice, then my ex (sons mother) cheated on me several times over with friends and strangers, all those I love leave me in one way or another, and yeah it still hurts so much, and yes you'll always get people talking behind other people's back, unfortunately, that seems to be human nature. I never bad mouth anyone, I never talk about anyone behind their back, if I have a problem with someone or something then I will just say it how it is!.
If you ever need to cht then just message me. I know it's hard but just try focus on the things that make you happy. Music is my focus, I have one song for every feeling and emotion.