I [28/F] found out my husband [29/M] and life partner of 10 years is gay...

If you’ve read my last posts you can see we’ve had issues. I’ve had trust and abandonment issues most recently since we moved cities (2 years ago almost)
But despite the recent issues I’ve always had this man by my side... my absolute best friend, my mentor, my travel buddy, my lover, my HUSBAND.
I know we got together quite young but I’ve never doubted he’s the one - even when I’ve been hurt - I mean what relationships don’t have their issues to work through...
My last post mentioned I found a photo of him and his Johnson and it raised huge suspicions for me as he’d been hanging out with a girl a lot... we turns out she’s no threat - LOL!! I have to laugh because since he told me three weeks ago that he’s always been gay, I’ve been in tears.
Now I feel like a lot of wives would hate their spouse for coming out like this but I could see his genuine fear and hurt in telling me about it, he loves me and didn’t want to hurt me. I’m the first and only person he’s ever told... so I feel guilty for sharing but our identity is hidden here.
His choice to marry me was genuine, I was the only female to ever ‘spin his wheels’ (nothing boyish or manly about me just for the clarity lol) he’s always wanted a big family and a busy household but our choice to hold back on having kids (phew!) has meant it’s often just him and I kicking it together.
I still love him.
I’m hurting.
I’m confused
He wants to stay together but only if I change (not to be a dude!!) but he doesn’t see me as happy within myself and says we won’t work if I don’t fix myself, he wants more friends, he wants me to be independent, he doesn’t want to do things just us anymore (all the things I love like our walks, picnics, bike rides, camping, Flix n chill) he said our marriage made him fat and depressed (he’s now lost so much weight and is grooming more etc)
Anyway - that’s some pretty gruelling personal stuff - from the girl that’s not supposed to tell a soul but is sharing it all on the web. I am also going to counselling and am seeing my doctor because I need help getting through this.
He wants to make it work and promises faithfulness and I want to make it work and accept it. I just don’t know if it’s worth going through a second heart break... we could last forever or we might not make it to 2019.
I’m so tired....
TLDR: my life partner of 10years just told me he’s gay but wants to stay committed and faithful to our relationship/marriage


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