Me [32F] with my grandmother[81] always comments about the size of my breasts. I've always been incredibly self-concious and she knows that.

I know I'm going to cry as I type this.
My grandmother is coherent, lives in her own house, healthy and able to have some resraint. For my whole life, for some reason, has always commented on MY body. She just picked me to judge. I remember sitting at the computer when I was a young teen, already insecure enough. The family was watching TV when she loudly proclaims to the fact that my pants had come down a tad in the back and showed a little of the top on my butt. "We can all see your gluteal crease!" Um no everyone was watching TV but thanks. My Mom looked at my Dad and said, "She's always so hard on her."
The last few years every time I see her she comments on my chest 100% in front of friends and family. "How did you get the biggest boobs in the family?" "Look at those ginormous breasts!" "What size are you? D? DD?" "You have SUCH big boobs!" A family friend was standing next to her. She turns to the friend and says, "I don't know HOW she got such enormous breasts!"
I've become so insecure I even bought a few binders. I don't feel confident in my body. I've tried to wear nice things but I just feel frumpy and gross. (Yep, now I'm crying) My breasts are the biggest in my family but they aren't heavy, hurting my back, or giving me bra indents. I still regularly research breast reduction surgeries. I know I'm not a candidate.
My grandmother used to live six hours away so I only had to deal with her comments for a short time. Now she lives in my city so the comments are often and painful. My Mom- who was devastated to learn this- has spoken to her telling to stop bringing attention to my body.
I guess she thought that my Mom meant to stop bringing it up publicly because today- at my niece's birthday party no less- she calls me over and whispered in my ear "I hope this won't make you feel sensitive but you look like you're wearing something to make your boobs look smaller but it just make your boobs look smooshed together and weird.. I hope that doesn't make you feel sensitive." I immediately deflated but kept up my enthusiasm for the party until I got home. I'm devastated. I thought I looked good today. I even wore my favorite jacket with a big octopus on the back. Now the one thing that made me feel confident and made me feel better about myself is crushed. I'm considering just wearing sweatshirts and big thick sweaters so no one can see.
My sister(36) said something a few months back saying "Your boobs look good, girl! Lookin big!" suppose to be a compliments but I cried, told her that I was self-conscious about them.. She said she was sorry she hurt me and hasn't made any comments on them since. How hard is that??
Admittedly I have gained weight do to infertility drugs. It's been difficult to take it off. ?
I would really appreciate experiences, advice, or for someone to just read this. Thank you all very much.

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tl;dr: Grandmother makes comments about my body and it makes me feel horrible about myself.


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