(Update) My girlfriend [20/F] is refusing to let me [20/M] see her while she’s in the ICU

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A huge thanks to everyone who gave me advice and support right now. I feel guilty for not updating for a while, but things have been hard. Ultimately, I made the choice to go out and make sure that I was there if things went south. My girlfriend’s condition had been slowly worsening, and her family was sort of urging me to be there. They really helped me in getting out to be there with her, which I’m very grateful for. I got on the soonest flight I could, and headed out.
By the time I got there, her infection had just really ravaged her. She was hanging on by a thread, and we all knew it. I was able to hold her hand as she passed away, and I’m forever blessed to have had that opportunity. My girlfriend was barely conscious, and not even with us, but I hope I provided her some small comfort as she passed on. I will feel guilty for the rest of my life that I disrespected her wishes and came to her, but I’ll also be glad. She was the light of my life, and I’m so thankful I got to see her one last time before she was gone.
I knew it would be difficult, but I’ve seriously just been at my lowest lately. School has dropped down to the bottom of my priorities, and I only ever want to talk about how amazing she was. But, I’m healing slowly, and I want to live the life that she didn’t get.
Again, thank you all so much for the support and advice you gave me. I’m sure that Charlotte would’ve been thankful for it.
Tl;Dr: My girlfriend passed away, but I was lucky to spend her last moments with her.


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